Blessed be the Lord, who has not given us as prey to their teeth. Psalm 124:6, NRSV
Lord, O, Lord!
Other people’s anger is nothing new, and never seems to go away. Ancient people felt chewed up by their enemies, just the way we do today; set up, persecuted, threatened there are times when we rightly feel like prey.
(Church. Oh, Church.)
In the immortal words of noted theologian Taylor Swift, “Haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate,” and sometimes I shake it off the way my mother said to when I scraped my knee.
But what I want to know, dear God, is this:
How can we not just shake it off, or fight back in kind, but make it better?
I cried out to the Lord when I was in trouble (and he answered me) – Psalm 120:1, CEB
When God appears in parentheses may I safely assume (or have I taken God for granted) She is there between the words – dwelling in the subtext – (does He sub-tweet?) layered in the lines of my life (did They answer me)?
I follow a lot of knitters and yarn dyers and pattern creators on Instagram, and sometimes I will see a sweater in progress and click on a hashtag to see other knitters’ versions of the pattern. I enjoy investigating what kinds of yarn they are using and seeing the variations of colors. Often I navigate to Ravelry and look at the pattern, and I might even do the math on a yarn purchase, but I never actually make a sweater. I tell myself, knitting for others is more satisfying (it’s true I love to knit for others), or you know you prefer to knit socks because they are so portable (also true, they really are), and sweaters are *so* complicated (which, usually, is also the truth, but I know knitters who would gladly advise me), and there are more excuses available, but when I see my friends in their sweaters, I kind of wish I were among them, banging out a Carbeth or whatever the sweater of the moment might be.
Here’s the truth that has mattered the most. What stops me from knitting one of these sweaters myself is seeing them on people who don’t look like me. The patterns may come in a range of sizes, but it’s hard to imagine what they would look like on me, since I am short and round.
This is the body I have.
And I wonder if knitting a sweater for the body I have might not be exactly the right project for what I am calling The Year of the Body? So I am going to go back to scrolling Instagram, but this year, I’m going to give it a try, and pick out a pattern and colors and yarn I love, ask for help if I need it, and make something beautiful for me.
What are you going to do for yourself and your body in 2019?