It’s possible I take it all too seriously,
As if each word were meant for me.
I read and write and pray,
But to what end?
Worship was work–
A job done well (or not),
Reviewed in the car,
Or over lunch, then filed away.
Jesus tempted? Check.
What’s next?
Move on to Lent 2.
But now I have not studied ahead.
I don’t know what’s coming.
I did not choose the hymns,
Arrange the prayers.
I did not spend my week
Walking dogs and weaving words,
Buying milk and building concepts,
Folding laundry and feeling texts.
I arrive and listen.
Jesus in the wilderness–
am I not on walkabout?
I feel so thirsty.
I drink in prayers and preaching.
I leave deep-drunk on words and Word.
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This was my first Ash Wednesday that I wasn’t imposing ashes on anyone. I warned my friends that if their foreheads were bare I might throw dirt on them. I experienced grief all day, and as I continue the job search I, too, am feeling a little lost… or at least, adrift. It’s hard to enjoy the time off with all the anxiety of “what’s next?”
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I’m late to comment, but this is beautiful: “deep drunk on words and Word”–yes!
And “worship was work”–wow. Glad you’re getting to just worship for a while.
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