(Thinking about texts for the 2nd Sunday after Epiphany, especially 1 Corinthians 5:12-20)
When I re-purposed this blog, which I started as a 365 writing blog two years ago, I titled it Reflectionary, hoping to do more writing on the topic of the texts from the Revised Common Lectionary. And I do that, but I also do other blogging, sometimes one more than the other. I've fallen out of some habits I tried to establish this time last year, to write about all four texts, even briefly, each week, and I'm going to start again.
"All things are lawful for me," but not all things are beneficial. "All things are lawful for me," but I will not be dominated by anything."Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food," and God will destroy both one and the other. (1 Corinthians 6:12-13)
I'm thinking of a new subtitle: Reflectionary, where the lectionary has a "come to Jesus" moment with my life.
I've always resisted the notion of faith-based diet plans, in part because they seemed to come from a more theologically conservative point of view, both in terms of how we perceive God and in terms of assessing women's ultimate purpose. Their God micromanages too much. Their notion of women's worth has more to do with relationships to men than to anything else. These are my opinions, and your mileage may vary.
"All things are lawful for me." This sort of thought went through my head on Friday when Pure Luck and I met his BFF for lunch. We went to our favorite local place (MB, RDM, Ruby, reverendmother have all been there with me), and I ordered my favorite thing, the Thai Tempura Veggie Roll-up.
Now, there are many worse things on the menu at the place we call "The Bear," for short. Many, many worse things. And I chose the mini-salad instead of the delicious fries as a side dish, and I had it with balsamic vinaigrette that I carefully sprinkled on the delicious greens. It may be that this meal can be supported by a thoughtful Weight Watchers member, using weekly and activity points, and some of it even counted as vegetables and healthy oils. The wrap is full of lettuce and shredded carrots in addition to the tempura veggies and the *gasp* really wonderful peanut sauce.
But on the menu there are other choices, listed with all their ingredients and calories, and you can get a great big salad with a grilled chicken breast and a very few skinny tortilla strips with fat free honey mustard dressing, and that is delicious, too.
I *love* the Thai Tempura Veggie Roll-up. I want to be able to eat it when we go there.
So I did (see above). And I had all my mental ammunition ready as to why it was a legitimate choice, and what the ramifications were, and I didn't finish the wrap part when I felt full. All good.
All good except that after the meal, I felt regret. I felt regret because I knew there were skinny choices on the menu.
The problem is not the thing I ordered. The problem is in my head. All things are lawful for me, but I will not be dominated by peanut sauce or tempura vegetables, either before or after. I can choose that meal again–no doubt, I will, we go there often, and as previously stated, I *love* it–but I will also choose the context. And the context will be respectful of the body and the mind and the spirit God gave me. The context will be within the parameters of the commitments I have made to myself, not with a feeling of guilt that will have me snuffling around the kitchen looking for dessert to sweeten the sour the minute I get home.
I may learn that I cannot eat this at all, that it triggers something for me.
Paul goes on to write about fornication, but what I'm talking about is a kind of fooling around in your own head, fooling yourself, or trying to, messing up what is a good gift: life.
All things are lawful for me, but not all things are beneficial. I get the message. Thanks.