(Mulling Exodus 33:12-23)
Here's something I love about Moses. No matter how many times he saw or heard from God, he wanted more. Not content to rest on the burning bush, or the magic powers, or the pillars of smoke and fire or the receiving of the tablets bearing THE LAW, Moses says to The LORD:
"Show me your glory, I pray."
I understand this. I am one of those people who cannot hear enough times that she is loved. I appreciate displays of affection. I get Moses. And I love the way God responds.
"Okay, honey, I'll show you my glory, to the extent you can take it in, and I'll even protect you from looking at me too directly, sort of like one of those pinhole things people use to keep from blinding themselves during an eclipse."
If you have ever needed to reassure a child who did not want to go to school or to daycare, you probably know why I am picturing God as an Awesome Mama here. "Sweet potato, go stand over there where it's safe, and just to be extra sure, Mama will cover your eyes for you with her Big Giant Hand."
Because much of the time, this is what we need.
My own children, two of them, are far away, and I want to do this for them, and not being supernatural, I cannot. I have to pray for them instead, pray that Snowman will apply to the right conservatory program, that #1 Son will find a job even though New York must be one of the worst places to look for one right this minute.
Frankly, I could use a dose of proof right about now, and I'm guessing many of you, worried about the general state of the world and the outcome of the election, could use it, too.
But Moses! Why did he need it? Hadn't he gotten more than enough?
Can you get enough of God?
Perhaps not. Perhaps they had a relationship so intimate that one appearance could not suffice. And apparently God enjoyed their little talks, too.
What I love about Moses is that he talks to God the way I do when I am driving the car. "Oh, Lord. What can I do to guide Snowman when he is so far away?" "How can I best help the people at church?" "Why can't that person see things the way I do when the answer is so clear?" Moses has come to God over and over with his doubts and his frustrations, and by doing just that, he has found favor in God's sight. It doesn't matter that he was impulsive. It doesn't matter that he was initially doubtful and frankly resistant. He gave God his all, his flawed and human all, and he found favor with God.
Maybe that I can do.